Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh (C.M) 
Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Check 

If I had all the money in the world 
I still couldn't buy me a brand new girl I love 
Too much clubbing, not enough loving 
Too much shopping, too busy chasing this thriller 
Who's now took a lost on your winner 
Sitting there singing this song like 
You never know what you've got 'til it's gone like 

Damn, I wish I would've seen it coming 
Cause I blink for a second and you caught me slipping, Oh, Oh, Oh 
Now we're done before we even started 
Didn't know how much I missed you 
(Didn't know how much I would miss you 
I messed up the perfect picture) 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
I didn't know how much I missed you 
Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh-oh 

Let me go, Yeah 

And look still I'm here 
She left me with no idea 
I just don't get it, it's kinda weird 
How you took off quicker than my career. it's kinda left 
It took a wrong man to admit he's wrong 
Still can't do it, I just put it in a song 
So don't correct me, I know that I'm wrong 
(I just need love) 
I'm too stuck in my ways, 
And I know this ain't helping me change 
And I'm sitting here singing this song like 
You never know what you've got 'til it's gone like 

Damn, I wish I would've seen it coming 
Cause I blink for a second and you caught me slipping, Oh, Oh, Oh 
Now we're done before we even started 
Didn't know how much I missed you 
(Didn't know how much I would miss you 
I messed up the perfect picture) 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
I didn't know how much I missed you 
Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh 
Oh whoa oh oh oh oh oh-oh (Whooa) 

Let me go, Yeah 

I'm too stressed and I'm trying not to flip 
I close my eyes and you're beside my lips 
So I try not to blink for one split sec 
Cus she bought in, and got my piece wrecked 
Since you left, nothing ain't right 
Two different ways, we have to part sides 
It's a long sighting, y'know, It ain't the same when you went missing 
Didn't know how much I missed you until you were gone, gone, gone 

until you were gone, gone, gone 
until you were gone, gone, gone 
until you were gone, gone, gone 

I didn't know how much I missed you 
(Didn't know how much I would miss you 
I messed up the perfect picture) 

Damn, I wish I would've seen it coming 
Cause I blink for a second and you caught me slipping, Oh, Oh, Oh 
Now we're done before we even started 
I didn't know how much I missed you 

Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone 
Until You Were Gone, gone, gone

miracle

do you believe in miracle?

I DO.

it happenned on me last night. I've been attacked by flu for 3 days, made me lost my voice. it was really hard to speak, for singing even worse. and then i found that the scheduled leader of my church youth community worship didnt appear last night, blank! then i should replace her. 

and it happenned. however, amazingly, i got my voice back. i even could be the worship leader, with a strange spirit. and it went well.

I do believe, that the spirit was You,Lord. I could feel it. You are everywhere! You were on my throat last night, ya You were, while You were in front of me, blessed me through the worship, and let all of it just about raising everything for you Magnificient Lord. YOU ANOINTED ME ADMIRABLY! 

it just about miracle. no matter how big or how small it happens, it is still a miracle. and He is the one and only source of the miracles. Thanks for turning me back, Lord. Thank you.

bosan

aku bosan.

aku ingin tantangan.

aku ingin kehidupan.

aku ingin kerjaan baru. titik.

definisi orang gila

tadi baca blog tetangga, dapat inspirasi tentang "orang gila", dan menemukan ini (published in TIME Asia Magazine, photo taken by John Stanmeyer):

ya Tuhan, tolong berikan umatmu definisi lagi tentang "manusia". separah itukah definisi manusia? serendah itukah harkat kami? sampai kami tidak peduli jika makhluk bernafas lainnya terpenjara seperti sampah? tertunduk lesu tak berdaya di tempat kami membuang hajat? saat mereka seharusnya terobati?

dan dengan kekuasaannya, para petinggi yang kami pilih dengan bantuan aliran dana tak terhitung banyaknya, yang dihabiskan lewat baliho, pamflet, advertisement, dan apapun itu disebut, mulai berargumen tentang minimnya anggaran operasional, ketidakjelasan asal usul pasien, dan segala macam omong kosong lainnya, sebagai another excuses.

karena gila bukanlah pilihan. dan mereka juga manusia. dan (kuharap) kita sadar bahwa kita juga manusia. dan bila kita tidak peduli pada mereka, sama dengan mereka tidak peduli pada kita, apa bedanya kita dengan mereka? *sigh*

as quoted from the blog :

Dan janganlah sekali-kali kebencianmu terhadap sesuatu kaum,
mendorong kamu untuk berlaku tidak adil.
Berlaku adillah, karena adil itu lebih dekat kepada takwa.

Tuhan, ajarlah kami menghitung mundur hari-hari kami, agar kami makin bijaksana. AMIN.

kita teman kan?

setahuku tidak ada istilah mantan teman. kita teman, sejak 2,5 tahun yang lalu. bener kan? 

kita berteman dengan semua yang ada, dan yang tidak ada, pada kita. aku berteman dengan kamu. dengan kelembutanmu, dengan boyish-mu, dengan teriakanmu, dengan tubuh imutmu, dengan rambut panjangmu, dengan jutaan bekas jerawat di wajahmu, dengan cacat-cacat di tubuhmu, dengan tawamu, dengan tangismu, dengan profesimu, dengan masa lalumu, dengan mimpimu, dengan miss ringringmu, dengan borosmu, dengan buah hatimu, dengan orang tuamu, dengan kamarmu, bahkan dengan kemunafikan dan kebohonganmu.

dan kamu berteman denganku. dengan keegoisanku, dengan angkuhku, dengan kata-kata kasarku, dengan mulut besarku, dengan rambut tipisku, dengan hidung pesekku, dengan kulit tannedku, dengan lemak-lemak berlebihku, dengan shopacholicku, dengan kamarku, dengan baju-bajuku, dengan bathroomku, dengan kameraku, dengan masa depanku, dengan orang tuaku, dengan menu lunch dirumahku,  dengan pacarku, bahkan dengan harapan dan kekecewaanku.

dan kita bersama-sama berteman dengan banyak hal. bowling, pedicure, creambath, massage, FB, karaoke, film, billyard, foto, restaurant, coffee shop, juice sirsak, pulsa, bir, lagu-lagu LDR super duper mellow, fitnes, taxi, tiket, bali, snorkeling, banyak.

kita pernah menjadi sangat erat, terlalu erat bahkan. tak terlepas. tak terpisahkan. tak terbantahkan. tak tergantikan. tak tergeser. 

dan tiba-tiba, kita -bagaimanapun- tak berteman.

ku merenung. lamaaaaaa sekali. dalaaaaammm sekali. seteliti mungkin, agar tak ku sisakan sedikitpun kepingan memori yang pantas untuk dipertimbangkan kembali. mencari semua detail yang sekiranya "layak" membuat jarak antara kita.

apa yang salah.

apa perbedaan fatalnya.

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dan kutemukan alasannya....!!! 

ya ampun, aku sempat lupa KALAU AKU TAK BERTEMAN DENGAN PACARMU, YANG TELAH MENYAKITI DAN MENGKHIANATIMU SANGAT DALAM, DAN MASIH KAU CINTAI. 

hanya 1 hal yang tak terjawab : apakah memang aku layak kau tinggalkan, demi dia? Only God knows.

ternyata itu alasannya. aku baru ingat. 

boss, thanks for all the guidance, I love the way you teaching me these last 2,5 years!! it is so inspiring!! have a better life, pak agus (although i always regret your decision to leave TID )